Friday, April 12, 2013

All the Things Inside Me

I am a flea who is restless
I remain unseen, yet I am always there
I sleep in the crevasses of the mind

I am an eerie glow that clings to the world
Because through my eyes
I never know what is real and what is not
I scream because its the only sound I can make to draw attention

I am the harp of a violin, played to make you weep
I am the sound of a dying soul

In my bones and through my veins
The flames of a dull fire flow
Which are harmless
Until I am force-fed a strong glass of kerosene

When I speak, people rarely seem to listen
They think that what I say, its tainted
They don't know that the words I speak
They are all my truths
All my attempts to prove my innocence

I am dressed in a straight jacket
Forever wrapped inside myself
Trapped in the confines of my own mind

I take my poison in a shot glass
It spreads through my veins like light through a dark room


I'm solely convinced I have maggots
That they lie beneath my skin
And eat away at my mind


It's why people look
And point
And whisper
They say "Look at that man,
see him over there?
He's living proof
that insanity exists."

And I say, maybe it actually does

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Insane

It made the drums pound
Heart beating fast
So rapidly in fact, I thought
It'd burst
It made the waves crash down upon me
Throwing my body back and forth
With such severe thrashing, I thought
I'd snap
It made my ears ring, the whistle of a kettle
The high agonizing pitch
It screamed so loud, I thought
My ears would bleed
It's the insanity that did it
The drums, the whistle, the waves
It's all the crazy in me
The insanity
The insane

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Love Story

Its a panoramic view
It circles above
Catching every glimmer of a smile
Every laugh
(There must be laughter)
An embrace
(There must be that too)
And back round music
Something sweet, to match the mood
To bring the want
The desire
The jealously
The joy
All the appropriate emotions evoked
Then you'll know you've got it
The perfect moment in time
The scene of a first kiss
Or a first date 
The first of anything
Anything to do
With a love story
 

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

3 a.m.

Its 3 a.m.
And I'm lonely
Sleepless
Restless
Bleary eyed
And spinning
The bottle of liquor that sits on the counter
Looks at me
The bottom third of a bottle of whisky
Sits filled with an amber liquid
Its taunting really
The way it sits there
This inanimate object
Bringing such comfort and such sorrow
Sighs and tears can't seem to quiet my thoughts
And the single bare bulb hanging from the kitchen ceiling
Makes the light eerier then it really should be
I sit in an awkwardly made wooden chair
Cutting me off right underneath my shoulder blades
I hold onto the counter tops and lean back
I hold onto the thought of you
My head hangs back
My broken heart seeming to break the slightest bit more
And I take another drink
Its 3 a.m.
And I'm lonely
Sleepless
Restless
Bleary eyed
With a broken heart

Crash

I crash into you
Like moths to a window
Like a spaceship to the moon
I crash into you
Like its all I've ever wanted
And all I've ever feared
Your pretty face
Your pretty smile
Your eyes that shine like the sun
Everything that has encompassed my dreams
And then I crash into you
Dreams colliding with reality
Resistance and curiosity
Fear and joy and cowardliness
Clarity and confusion
Begin
All when I crash
Into you

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Bodies


Tick tock

Bang of a glock

Top shock

Bodies get rocked

Time stops

Heart beats pick up

Nameless named faces

Don’t leave any traces

Bullets and shells

Rain down and men fell

Feet start to run

The butt of a gun

Hangs in the hand

Of a stone cold dead man

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Tonight


Tonight tonight

Tonight at midnight

When the clock strikes twelve

And the owls begin to question

The stars start to shoot

A galaxy of pistols

Bright lights stranded in the open sky

The crackle of the leaves under foot

Of small rodents

At midnight

The world transcends

Into a deep ocean of darkness

There is a silence that hangs in the air

You can feel it

Like a heavy wool cloak

Wrapped round your shoulders

It makes the sound

Of every slight intricate noise

Ring so high it makes the heart skip a beat

Every stir pierces the nerves

And quickens the breath

Bare feet down a paved road

The cool of the air across ones skin

The prickle of pebbles under foot

The moon shining brightly

Though the clouds roll quickly in and out

Wisps of cover for the night

And tonight, tonight

Tonight at midnight

I open my eyes

To a world that’s fallen asleep